Tonight was so unexpected. It felt like such an emotional night. I didn't expect it at all... firstly, Janet, my instructor totally get Jeff... she totally point it out, lay it all bare, out in the open for all to see the kind of person Jeff is... she didn't get anywhere much... but at least she tried... and when my turn comes, I think a mix of the emotions that I was feeling from listening from the others and how it mirrors my problems, and also the mood of everything, and how much I really want to let it all hang out in the open... I just start to burst out in tears... I was trying so hard to not cry... trying so hard to control it... but the dam broke and the tears just start to pour in... even though by the time the class ended I finally manage to stop crying... in the car, on my way back, I just burst out crying again... and this time, it was just worst...
during the tell all session, one thing that came out was how much I was feeling like a loser... I just have to stop thinking that I'm not good enough and start to think that I can do it... so, I've decided to change my personal description to something more positive... right now, I've wrote that I am a no talent girl... that definitely have got to change... I just need to feel more confident about what I'm passionate in...
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