cracks on the dam no more

tonight is the third time I cried in class... everything is so emotional and the thing is I hate to cry... everytime I cry, I get terrible headaches... even now I can feel it coming... the beginning effect is already here, and pretty soon I'm going to feel the whole thing... this is going to be an early night since sleep would probably be the easiest way to make it go away... 

normally I'm not so open... but by being open, everything seems to come out and I just can't stop the wall from breaking and the water from pouring out like there's a force pushing it out... maybe Shanaz, my instructor is right... I'm growing up... and I think at the same time, I kinda stop growing at one point, so now I'm catching up...